This year my last living grandparent passed away just before midnight on April 9th, 2015.
That day is actually the day before the Christian Orthodox Good Friday. My family is Serbian and faith is very much one with our nation’s identity, which would explain why Serbs refer to themselves as Serbian Orthodox when asked what religion we observe.
The day my maternal grandmother passed away is significant because since it was just 15 minutes before midnight, on the eve of Good Friday; that means that she was very pure of heart. This was said by the officiating priest Father Miloš Vesin, at her funeral. He was the priest who baptized me (I was the first child he ever baptized), he was the priest who would always come over to bless my maternal grandparents’ home on their krsna slava day, he was the priest who made a lasting impression on me and my family. He truly gives you goosebumps with his eloquent and stirring sermons.
👶#tbt 1990. 👨👩👧 In my parents arms, at the end of my christening. To the right is Fr. Milos Vesin. This was the first christening he officiated. He was celebrated this past Sunday (September 20th) for his 25 years of priesthood at his parish, St. Archangel Michael. #Serbian #SerbianGirl #SerbianOrthodox #Christening #90s #EastChicago #Love #baby #mommyanddaddy #kisses #hugs #blessing
I’ve seen Fr. Miloš periodically throughout my life, from the time he was a priest in East Chicago, to Schererville, IN, to Lansing, IL. Coincidentally he was celebrated last month on September 20th at his parish, St. Archangel Michael for his 25 years of service and contributions. He travels much, going on speaking engagements and doing good works around the world. He is a figurehead in Christian Orthodoxy, internationally reveared. He even has a Ph. D in Psychology! He is one of those rare learned men that we don’t see very much of these days.
He wrote the foreward to a book geared to children, to help them with the grieving process and to understand the traditions with honoring the dead and the funeral service. I think I’d like to buy this for my children, so that when they first learn of a loved one’s death, it won’t be as hard as it was for me when I was little and lost my first grandparent.
Sad to say, Fr. Miloš’ mother passed away a few weeks after my maternal grandmother’s funeral. I remember him apologizing to my family after the burial, that he couldn’t stay for the meal afterwards because he had to catch a flight for Serbia, to be at his mother’s side.
I still remember the day of the funeral so clearly.
My husband and I made it just before the church doors were closing, and Fr. Miloš was the one who was closing the doors. I hadn’t seen him in quite a few years (maybe 9 years or something). He smiled when he saw me, he was exactly the same as always except a little more gray. We went to the front pew and sat with my parents, and the service delivered by him was one of the most moving. He knew my grandmother, my baka as we call our grandmother’s in Serbian. His oration was so touching because he had personal stories to share himself. I started to cry when he spoke about his first meeting her when he was a young priest, how kind she was and funny. He spoke about the slavas, and my grandmother insisting he eat and stay after blessing their home. He delivered the entire service in Serbian because my grandmother had asked for that. She was a traditionalist, she was proud of her language, and if you believe that our loved ones hang around after they are gone, having the service in Serbian meant that she would be able to listen in and understand everything without the need for translation.
It feels Like a part of me is missing now that all my grandparents are gone.
My connection with the past feels locked away. My memories of my grandparents is getting harder to recall, I can’t remember their voices anymore. All I have are a couple video transfers of my christening and my parent’s wedding to hear the voices of my maternal grandparents. My paternal grandparents lived overseas, and all I have are photographs of them. I see their faces in elders who share similar features and expressions. My heart swells up with sadness when the littlest reminder of them comes up.
Depending on what kind of relationship you had with your grandparents, the grieving process can be very painful if you were really close. I used to think a lot in those first few weeks since her passing about how my baka got to see me earn my degrees, get married, buy a house, and that’s more than the other three grandparents got to see. But I quickly saw that focusing on the sad and what wasn’t only kept me feeling irrevocably inconsolable.
The way I’ve dealt with each loss of a grandparent has always gotten better by distracting myself with busy work, leisure activities, taking care of myself and helping others. Creativity has always been the best way for me to feel better and remember that loss is a part of life, and doesn’t mean I am lost.
I wonder what our parents feel like, now that they are primed to be grandparents one day. My husband and I one day will be grandparents too. As a granddaughter I saw my grandparents as these great outlets for fun and freedom, and I learned from them things my parents couldn’t teach me. Although they are gone, I am so happy I got to meet them and be with them in my lifetime. I imagine that when I am a grandparent, I will feel a unique sense of fullfilment and joy from loving and, giving, and teaching my grandchildren. I also know that I will be sad to know that my time is limited with them. Although we all know there is an end in sight to our lives, that does not mean we give in and stay maudline because we can’t freeze the hands of time. Focusing on the positive things in life is what we live for and gives us light.
So with loss I recommend life, love, and taking time to grieve; but also celebrate the great memories of the ones we lost.
Read Fr. Miloš bio, it’s quite fascinating.
Fr. Dr. Milos M. Vesin
Milos Vesin was born February 25, 1956, to father Marinko, a literature professor, publicist and writer; and mother Nada Vesin, an economist. After attending school in Novi Sad, he attended St. Arsenije Serbian Orthodox Seminary in Sremski Karlovci, Serbia, graduating in 1975.
He then attended Isidor Bajic music school, majoring in solo-singing, and studying under Professor Teodor Dinjaski. He also had private music study with European concert singer and Vocal Pedagogue Professer Jelka-Stamatovic-Nikolic, in Belgrade. He continued his studies at the Theological Faculty of the Serbian Orthodox Church in Belgrade, Serbia, graduating in 1980. He became the first conductor of the newly-founded Clergy Choir “St Sava” in the Diocese of Shumadija-Kragujevac, Serbia, becoming its conductor and touring in Serbia, Austria, Switzerland, Germany, France and Romania. This group produced several recordings of Liturgical Music. He then went on to post-graduate studies in Pastoral Theology and Psychology at the roman Catholic Theological Faculty in Switzerland, under Professor Dr. Metropolitan Damaskinos Papandreou, and Prof. Dr. Brunner. He continued his music studies at the Academy for Church Music in Switzerland. Between 1980-1995, he represented the Serbian Orthodox Church in conferences in Switzerland, Germany, Austria, Italy, France, Hungary, Romania, Greece, Sweden, Holland, England, Australia, and the United States.
In 1988, he married Dragana Todorovid, Dipl. Philologist, from Novi Sad, Serbia. The same year, he was ordained a Deacon by Bishop Sava and was assigned to St. George Cathedral Church in Novi Sad. He was ordained into the priesthood in 1990 by His Grace Bishop Christopher. In 1991, Fr. Milos and Dragana became the parents of son Marko.
From 1990 until the present he has been Pastor of St. Archangel Michael Church, first in South Chicago, then in Lansing. In 2006 he received a Ph.D. in Psychology, writing his doctoral thesis on *The Counseling Psychology and Orthodox Christian Sacrament of Confession on the crossroad between healthy and pathological feelings of Guilt.” Father Milos has authored and translated numerous books, and helped produce many musical recordings. He also served as a professor at St. Sava Theological Seminary in Libertyville, teaching Church Chant, Homeletics, and Pastoral Psychology.
(Source: Religious Tourism, February 13, 2018)